For Me

Anger. And then crying because you're really angry and can do nothing about it.

A few comments by a person who i once really respected, made me feel like the the most insignificant person in the world today. You know how in cartoons it's shown that the character turns red when he's angry? Today, i could feel my face getting red - not the kind that happens when you blush because of a compliment - it was because i was mad; so mad that i could see red. And so i cried. In public. During a meeting. Don't get me wrong, i'm the last person to cry in front of people. I couldn't help it today though. I couldn't lash out on the person who kept profusely apologizing but yet kept throwing insults. And insulting me why because i always, ALWAYS stayed late and helped in every possible work (and by helped here i mean did all the work by myself while the others just sat and stared at my face)? Or attended every possible meeting on time; save one or two because i simply could not make it? Or never complained once when i was assigned something last minute, despite all the college work i had? 

This is what i get for always spending my time to please others. For putting others before myself. For working my ass off just to make others happy. For not telling others how i actually feel about them no matter how much i dislike them, just cuz i know it'd hurt them.

So you know what? Fuck people. From now on i'm gonna do what i want to please myself and myself only.

F x